its been a month and some days.

you cheated you lied, i love you.
i don't know who i'd be without you.
you're my soul, my air.
i need you in my life.

i never thought i'd be with a liar.

Its been a while.

I've been broken, noticing the truth. well i have noticed for a while already, but its hitting me. she hurt me, and i did some stuff that i now completely regret. i was sober for a long time, i thought i wouldn't have to result to it anymore, but i was wrong. she cheated, and lied. but i took her back. she has no idea how beautiful she is, it amazes me everyday. i wish she was here with ME. getting high made me free my mind, i wondered. i enjoy getting high. it was the only thing that helped me sleep those days. reminded me of my old ways, and how it used to be. it seems like a lifetime ago when i lived like there was no tomorrow. i wish i sometimes lived like that still. i miss the friends i had, and the things that came with it. one question that will forever bother me will be what will she be after i finally leave? it gets to me everytime. i've been though so much for this girl and its going to end anyways and she doesn't even know it.



fml.