I can feel a hot one.

Listening to the song makes me think of you, but is that what i want? I want you, but i can't. Another restless night without you is killing me. I'm tired of these feelings. I'm tired of hurting you. Why did you come back??? I've asked myself that stupid gosh dang question. I love you too freaking much. I can't bare to lose you, but i'm going to have to do it soon. I can't keep you waiting any longer for me, knowing i'm not coming around. I just want to be in your presence just for one time. I wanna see how you stand how you smile, the simple things i'll never get to touch. I just want to hold you and tell you everything is going to be okay. It's too late, i haven't talked to you for a couple of hours, and you seem not to care so why should i? You're not freaking perfect, you've done things already that have hurt me. Why do i keep letting you in? You kill me every time. When we talked today, you reminded me of what you did. Something i'll never get the chance to do. I can't say goodbye, but i have too.

Boo you whore.

Everything i did to that person, the new one is doing to me. Karma may i say? lol, most probably. I lost all feelings and emotion. Like i wouldn't care if this ended. Like really, it's practically dead. No joke. I lose feelings like no other. Once you do something to me, i start not caring. God dangit, i thought that person was different. Oh wait no i didn't i knew that person was going to do this to me. Just like all the rest. al;kdjfaijefa'ljdf. I'm so tired of all this shit really. But i can't say goodbye

Littlest things.

Wow, i'm just hurting that person. Why do i do this to myself and my love ones? I'm going crazy without that person, but it's not going to happen. But still i'm hard headed and stupid. Why did you come back???? why? It was going good, i was forgetting everything and then you came back. Why did you text me back? You wouldn't be like this if it wasn't for me. It's all my fault, every little bit. I'm not that person why can't you just see the truth. It's never going to happen, even though i'm in love with you. I'll never see myself with anyone else, but you. I love you, i love you, i love you. I wake up to you, sleep with you, laugh, and cry. You're my one and only. Something i've wanted since forever. I would give anything to be in the same room as you. I haven't felt this way in a long time. I just watch myself kill you in the inside. I bring hope, and let you down. I hope you see the true person i am one day, and hate me. I hurt you too much, i watch you bleed right in front of me.

It's early.

Don't you wonder how things change? or how things would've been? i was contemplating on how stuff happens, and its totally crazy. I used to have the tighest click and a bestfriend. Now my click are a bunch of guys, (which i love with all my heart) and my computer. lol how lame is that. I realized that i NEED to go out more. My bffl Bee invited me to go to the movies again on Saturday with my click but my click is poor including me. When the whole recission thing started my family was fine, but now its totally gone to shit. like really? My family doesn't deserve this. but life is life you just got to deal with it. Gosh Dangit, I need to go to bed. I'm hardcore sleepy but i need to think about stuff.....:/ it'll get better soon i hope

Oh Gosh.

I've been in my brother's house for the last couple of days, and it's been killing me. NO FREAKING CELLPHONE lol. I get so angry :P. So I started reading stuff and I thought well i like talking about myself why don't i show people what i talk about :P. It's fun how something so simple can make people do it. lol It's summer and i'm not doing shit. I haven't looked for a job, and i'm just laying around hoping something interesting may lighten up my day. Gosh dangit, i miss school sometimes. How i used to hang with the homies, and chill. In mr.Soto's class making fun of him, or walking around the hall saying hi to the administrators. Being a junior is going to be hell i know. But i have a couple of months still from being one. ;D