San Marcos....

Sucks ass when you have nothing to do. I'm sitting contemplating if i should relax, or play with the kids. I really don't like kids at all. They annoy the shit out of me, but they're family. What can i say? Did anyone know I'm a hopeless romantic? I fall to easily for people that say "i love you". It's now a problem, why should i give my best to someone when they're faking it the whole time. I never listen to myself, i never believe i can do something. I have before, but i'm usually the one getting hurt, crying for hours. Lost for days.....I remember when i broke up with someone, i really didnt want too. But i had too. Even though i have someone new, i still think about that relationship and i think about the nights. DAMN. I need my homies at the moment, especially Ram. He's the only dude i trust with everything. ughhhhh, i need to go back to laredo. I'm missing my daddy.